It happened again last night. Once or twice a month I have this reoccurring dream and last night I had "the dream" again. What you ask is the dream. It's us with multiple babies, not just 2 but 3 babies!!! You all can stop laughing, I mean it, stop right now.
In each dream it's the same thing. Our current nursery is decorated as it is right now, then all of a sudden I'm in panic mode trying to figure out how to decorate the other two nurseries, gather baby supplies, get over the shock of having more babies and how to tell everyone our news. Then I'm painting one of the rooms a gray and pale yellow paint scheme (I guess I'm really into yellow this year). Then all of a sudden I have all 3 babies in the house.
WHAT IN THE WORLD DOES THIS MEAN?
No where in my dream am I actually pregnant, going to the doctor or going to the adoption agency. It's just BAM 3 babies. When I wake up (usually in the middle of the night freaked out) the first thing I do is see if we actually have a baby in our room. What??? Then when I realize we don't, I calm down and go back to sleep.
The problem is sleep doesn't come fast because I'm trying to figure out what in the world this reoccurring dream means. Then I of course my mind goes into a state of "what if something like this really happens", then what? Finally, I fall asleep.
When we wake up the next morning I tell Fred I had "the dream" again and his ONLY response is...."that's awesome, God is answering my prayers of having twins"! Crazy, only my husband would purposely pray for twins.
Have a great weekend.
Friday, March 30, 2012
Thursday, March 29, 2012
4 Months & Waiting
First, let me apologize that it's been so long since the last post, but honestly I wasn't sure if anyone was reading my posts, but apparently there are at least a few of you out there.
I know everyone wants to know where we stand with the adoption so here's the latest. We're in month 4, quickly entering month 5 of "waiting". Waiting on what you might ask? For a birthmom to select us and then praying that the first "match" is the correct match for both sides. Sounds simple and it might be in the eyes of man, but in the eyes of God what He wants and of course what we want can be so very, very different. We of course are praying that the first phone call and "match up" are the correct one.
Fred and I always had this underlining feeling that we'd hear something this month (March) and that month is quickly wrapping up, so I keep telling myself this is no big deal because God is in control. I keep looking back over the last 9 years and what we've been through and then think, "Hey, if we have to wait a few more months for our beautiful, strong birthmom and baby than that's ok".
I think and pray for our birthmom and baby daily. I think about what she must be going through. Where she's living (at home, at Hannah House, with a friend/boyfriend)? Are they safe? Are they eating enough? Does she have the support she needs, financial, emotionally, spiritually? She is saved? How scared is she? Is she scared about us and how we are going to raise her baby? Just think this girl can be anywhere between 15-30, with the aveage age 18-21? Do you remember how you were at that age, I do? I was NO WAY near ready to be pregnant. I'd be so freaking out.
My heart breaks for these girls, when I think about everything they must be going through, but at the same time I admire them. They have complete unconditional love for thier child. Our agency is amazing. They stand beside these girls from the time they call until months after delivery. God's hand and love is woven through this process like nothing I've ever seen before.
God has been growing this seed of desire deep within my heart over the past months to speak as an adovcate for adoption and we don't even have a child yet. I have no idea why He's doing this, but I'm open to whatever His will is for my life. In the meantime, I'll serve Him in all that I do and continue to pray for our future birthmom and baby.
In the meantime we ae putting the final touches on the nursery. I just need to spend a day putting it all together (i.e. the bedding, pictures in frames, organizing the bookcase, etc...) One of these days we'll have to send some time putting the stroller together and getting the car set into the mini-van. Honestly, that will probably take my Engineer husband a while. LoL
I'm finishing up old projects and starting a couple more, I wouldn't be me if I didn't. I'm getting ready to paint our bedroom, thinking about making my own wall stencil for the wall behind our bed. I'm also helping a friend design and decorate a headboard for her master bedroom. So, as ususal I stay busy. I wouldn't have it any other way. :-)
I know everyone wants to know where we stand with the adoption so here's the latest. We're in month 4, quickly entering month 5 of "waiting". Waiting on what you might ask? For a birthmom to select us and then praying that the first "match" is the correct match for both sides. Sounds simple and it might be in the eyes of man, but in the eyes of God what He wants and of course what we want can be so very, very different. We of course are praying that the first phone call and "match up" are the correct one.
Fred and I always had this underlining feeling that we'd hear something this month (March) and that month is quickly wrapping up, so I keep telling myself this is no big deal because God is in control. I keep looking back over the last 9 years and what we've been through and then think, "Hey, if we have to wait a few more months for our beautiful, strong birthmom and baby than that's ok".
I think and pray for our birthmom and baby daily. I think about what she must be going through. Where she's living (at home, at Hannah House, with a friend/boyfriend)? Are they safe? Are they eating enough? Does she have the support she needs, financial, emotionally, spiritually? She is saved? How scared is she? Is she scared about us and how we are going to raise her baby? Just think this girl can be anywhere between 15-30, with the aveage age 18-21? Do you remember how you were at that age, I do? I was NO WAY near ready to be pregnant. I'd be so freaking out.
My heart breaks for these girls, when I think about everything they must be going through, but at the same time I admire them. They have complete unconditional love for thier child. Our agency is amazing. They stand beside these girls from the time they call until months after delivery. God's hand and love is woven through this process like nothing I've ever seen before.
God has been growing this seed of desire deep within my heart over the past months to speak as an adovcate for adoption and we don't even have a child yet. I have no idea why He's doing this, but I'm open to whatever His will is for my life. In the meantime, I'll serve Him in all that I do and continue to pray for our future birthmom and baby.
In the meantime we ae putting the final touches on the nursery. I just need to spend a day putting it all together (i.e. the bedding, pictures in frames, organizing the bookcase, etc...) One of these days we'll have to send some time putting the stroller together and getting the car set into the mini-van. Honestly, that will probably take my Engineer husband a while. LoL
I'm finishing up old projects and starting a couple more, I wouldn't be me if I didn't. I'm getting ready to paint our bedroom, thinking about making my own wall stencil for the wall behind our bed. I'm also helping a friend design and decorate a headboard for her master bedroom. So, as ususal I stay busy. I wouldn't have it any other way. :-)
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